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 Hi,

It’s been a long time. We haven’t talked a lot these days. How have you been? Are you doing well? Are you taking care of yourself? Are you eating well?

I had a lot of fun watching you grow up. The timid and shy girl now has become an independent, strong woman whose not afraid to wear her heart on her sleeves.

You’ve grown a lot, you know that?

I’m sure your dad must’ve been so proud of his little girl, whose now not so little anymore. If only he was still here… It’s okay, little girl, he’s been watching you and making sure you’re growing up well. I’m sure, up there, he’s saying, 

“Look at her! She used to be my little girl. I guess I should not call her that anymore. She has grown into a beautiful, mature woman whom I’m so proud of.” 

Will he brag about you like he used to? Oh, I’m sure he will ;)

Congrats for making it this far! 23, huh?

I’m sure the journey leading up here was not easy. Thank you for holding up and staying strong up until now. I know how hard it was for you, and you had your ups and downs throughout the time.

고생했어, 잘했어! ❤️

I know sometimes it’s easier to just say, 

“I give up! I can’t do this anymore,” 

but you… You pushed and went through it will all your might. You surprised me sometimes.

You know, if it’s hard just say it is and seek help from someone else. If you have enough on your plate, dare to speak up for yourself and say no. It doesn’t have to be you. I’m more worried about you than anything else.

Promise me to take care of yourself, to always have a full belly, to hydrate and drink more water, to take care of your health. And more importantly, to always be happy, sincerely happy.

Don’t stay up late often! It’s not good for your health and also your mind. Rest for now. Tomorrow, we will fight another battles. More will come your way, and it could be harder than you can imagine.

But I believe we can overcome that…

…because we have each other to rely on.

힘내! 잘할수있어!

난 널 믿어❤️

I love you too and more

She picked up the calendar next to her bedside table
Scarying all the numbers away as she scrutinized every detail of it

She was so lost in her train of thoughts

She never imagine ended up with him
As she never seen him more than friends
Denying every love existed in their friendship

She never imagine how lucky she would be
Actually started to open up her heart
For a person she used to avoid in her past

She never imagine how lucky she was
Accepting his love as he was
Openly accepting the fact that she was denying her heart for most parts
Stupidly believing that long distance would work (oh, it does anyway)

She still never imagine how truly lucky she is
As their infatuation grows each day
As the bitter parts make the heart grow fonder
Complementing the sweet parts like a little susurrations of pleasure
Like a wine that ages well

The hours flew by without notice

Angrily, she turned him down
Thinking he would forget the special day

However, he truly was a work of wonder
His words were like a cold wind on a summer night
Soothing her mind as tears fell down her face
Who is she to deserve such happiness in her life

She circled the calendar with a smile on her face and said,
"Two years and counting"